Me n atheism II

 

 

Its long since I  wrote something. I have promised for the continuation of my post Me n Atheism and as usual my laziness haven't allowed me since then. Now that I have bored of getting bored I thought let me resume my blog.

Once I joined college the regular visits to temples stopped, then I used to visit temples only because my mom used to force me. I started reading books, a lot of books and I was thinking what is this real concept of God!

Why there is a temple and inside it one idol is there? I read somewhere everything written in Hindu scriptures symbolizes something. The temple is a symbolic representation of human body. Temples are always kept neat and tidy.That points to the fact that we should keep ourselves neat and clean. The idol inside the temple represents the soul inside you. That meant something sensible to me.

Then this main turning point happened. I heard of the word  "Thathvamasi". What is Thathvamasi?Its written in the main entrance of Sabarimala temple but how many of them visiting knows the meaning of the word. I began my research as usual and came to know that the meaning of the word  is "I reside in you" . Means the God whom you are searching in temples actually reside in you. The temples are just a symbolic representation for you to understand that the God is there inside you search him there .In Indian culture we are taught to respect others .We are made to touch feet of others if we accidently touch them with our feet. That I think is done to respect the God inside others and that we shouldn't to disrespect that God with the touch of our feet.

So friends what do you think?  Do you think going to temples and spending money on the poojas or standing in long queue in the temple makes you nearer to God? By the way if you are ready to pay extra few bucks you can do special poojas and spend more time near the idol, in almost all reputed rich temples.

I watched this Bollywood movie Oh my God! Really its an eye opener to all those who blindly believe or are scared of God. But even though we folks watch such movies once out of the theatre the theme and the message is forgotten by the fear that if I believe in such ideologies maybe God will get angry and I may get more sorrows and misfortune.

Don't you think making yourself a better person, a good citizen, a helping hand to others will make your soul purer? Don't you think respecting others is equal to respecting the God residing in them?Do we still have to be scared and run to numerous temples and do pooja to numerous Gods just to bring fortune to our lives? Are we missing the important message the temples are giving? When will we start looking into ourselves and say "Thathvamasi"!!!!

Me n Atheism!!

I call myself a rebel.. But most of the time when I need to be a rebel I will be the most silent person available and will be hiding somewhere.. There are so many things like this which sounds so good to be and I imagine myself to be so. I am the hero in my imaginations like a typical Bollywood hero who does the impossible. One such thing which I imagine me to be is that I am an atheist. I think that's kinda rebellious, heroic and cool (Seriously !! :)).. Not sure though!! But one thing I am sure about is that I don't believe in religions.. The name of it irritates me..

Ok.. This is how it goes! I was brought up in a small village. When I was small I used to go to temples once in a year for festival. There will be colorful balloons, some food items that drew my attention and evening there will be some programs. But I was not so close to God that time .I was told,when you go to temple just fold your hands together and say take care of me. Not sure how much of me believed that God is hearing my prayer . Then we moved to a new place where my house and the temple had the same compound wall. From that time onwards I used to go to temple everyday and pray. For not getting any punishment from school, more prayers on the day which I get my test results and for changing the mind of my mom so that she will sign the progress report for me and so on. And it continued..

The only thing which I felt was different in me was that I believed that there is only one religion that is humanity and two castes that is male and female. Thanks to my older sisters!! I used to listen their conversations with their friends and they used to make such serious statements. I simply loved it (imagine even when I was too little).!! I had friends who were younger to me and I was their caretaker plus role model for them. I used to make the same speech to them too.. But the fact is that no matter how silly it sounds these thoughts got sealed on to my head.

That being said, when I was growing up to a teenager I used to talk to the goddess who was in the neighbor hood temple. I thought she loved me only. I used to pray to her all my needs. Even when my sister got a proposal . I liked the guy by seeing the picture. I prayed hard for her to get married to him only (and yeah it happened!!). So then I was thinking myself to be the best friend of the goddess. I am scared of dogs (I have dogophobia..Daarnnn! I don't know the real name of that disease , I will just call it dogophobia !!) ..And whenever I used to see a dog near me I will tell some hymns so that the dog will not come in my way and to change its route. Believe me every time I prayed the dogs changed their ways :) Lol!!

Slowly slowly, I started thinking is God really there, is god there to fulfill all which I ask for??
I was confused because some things which I asked for was not being done and its happening by its own(For eg: flying cockroaches I am scared of flying cockroaches,thanks to my sisters again, they only created this cockroach phobia in me ). I will be sad for sometime but later I will forget. Slowly I stopped asking for God's favor except for exam results and dogs coming on my way!! I slowly stopped going to temples in spite of my mom yelling at me for not visiting. I started thinking why I really need to go to temple, is it because I am really scared of God or is it because I need to get something in favor?
[ To be continued...]

Show me the meaning

I cried when I was introduced to the world ,
Maybe I was  insecure seeing the world,
I was held in secure arms but I was scared,
Something in me asked- show me the meaning of  birth

I saw a lot of grown ups around me,
They introduced as parents, sisters and grand parents,
But some people around called themselves strangers,
Something in me asked - show me the meaning of  relations.

I grew up being loved,happy,jealous,sad,
I learnt to love and hate,to own and hurt,
There were a lot of hands holding mine,
Something in me asked - show me the meaning of growing up.

I found affection towards my fellow ones,
I felt I should be there for them whatever happens,
There was a feeling of bonding with those similar minds,
Something in me asked - show me the meaning of friendship.

I loved the feeling of being admired by someone,
I was falling into a deep sleep and felt like in a dream,
But then I felt a strong wave inside me,something broke,
Something in me asked - show me the meaning of love.

I was wounded so deep I couldn't open my eyes.
It felt so painful whenever I tried to see the world around,
But then I saw a light,it was a kind hearted smile,so healing,
Something in me asked - show me the meaning of hope.

I was being loved and I felt at the top of the world,
I saw happiness and selfless love showered on me,
I was scared a bit but happy to embrace those feelings,
Something in me asked - show me the meaning of life.

Something in me told- I am born to know the meaning of relations,
To grow up to be a good friend,to be loved,
To know that how much ever you are hurt never leave hope,
Life is there ahead you with lot of surprises ,good and bad.

About me - in short " Intro" :)

So here I am..atlast!! after years of blogging ambition..I dont know whether I can write anything or express anything through words but jz like that not bcoz its in fashion now. Just an urge to try something new.

About me - I was born in the year which India won its first world cup for cricket..Yay!!!! But the sad thing is I cant remember anything that happened till I was 4 years old, except for a vague memory of a train journey from somewhere North to my beautiful state Kerala. I am unconditionally in love with the village I am brought up..Dont ask why! Bcoz I also dont know the reason.

My character - Its lil weird kind of character..It changes every ten minutes..Kinda eccentric..Sometimes moody..But the stable behavior is happiness..I cant be depressed for a long time !!

My hobbies - Everything that catches my eye,which i have never done before which looks adventurous are welcome.. Come in my way :)..The new one "BLOGGING" :)


As of now my laziness is overpowering me and stopping my fingers from typing anything further..So I am stopping here and hope I will soon put another post..But I am grateful to my laziness for allowing me to write at least this much.